values.. which my family apparently is *LACKING* (except for jay & joe)

well- i just had another interview on zoom. i didn't really put too much confidence in getting this job because i could've sworn the last time i attempted to interview with them, they just kicked me outta the meeting without reason. the lady explained the role of the job and she said people working this job would have to have their own vehicles, so they could get around while working this job. when she said that, i thought to myself, "great. another job i can't do because i don't have my license yet OR a vehicle now." so i told her when she was finished talking that i wasn't sure if i'd be able to work this job because i didn't have a license anymore or a vehicle. TWENTY THREE YEARS AND A COUPLE MONTHS SINCE MY DAMN ACCIDENT AND- OH!! I'M STILL UNABLE TO DO THINGS AN ABLE PERSON WOULD BE ABLE TO DO BECAUSE NO ONE CARES ENOUGH ABOUT ME TO HELP ADVOCATE FOR ME TO GET MY DAMN DRIVER'S LICENSE. "GO TO COURAGE KENNY! THEY'LL HELP YOU GET IT!" FOR THE MILLIONTH FUCKING TIME- I SPENT AT LEAST FIVE FUCKING YEARS THERE WITH THE GOAL IN MY GOAL BOOK THAT I WANTED TO GET MY DRIVER'S LICENSE AGAIN- DID THEY HELP ME GET IT?! HELL NO. USELESS FUCKING EXCUSE OF A "REHABILITATION INSTITUTE". MAYBE THE PURPOSE OF THEM FAILING ME EVERY DAMN TIME I TOOK THE TEST THERE WAS TO MAKE ME GO CRAZY. IN WHICH SENSE- I'M JUST ABOUT THERE. which is also why i AVOID ANYTHING having to do with that useless fucking joke for my mental health and psychological well-being which i'm almost positive should NOT be the intention of ANY such "rehabilitation institute". they're lucky that my family is selfish and uncaring when it comes to making me a truly happy, fully able person. my family (except for joe and jay) is full of a bunch of unempathetic fools and i get punished for it, considering it and letting it "HELP" get me where I will be TRULY HAPPY AND SUCCESSFUL PERSON. YOU GOT THIS AMANDA! GOOD LUCK ATTEMPTING TO MAKE YOURSELF APPEAR "CARING" AND "USEFUL" WHICH YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY NOT IN ANY WAY TO ME. so obviously- if amanda is not helpful or caring about me- MY MOM DEFINITELY DOESN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME. MY GRANDMA IS NOT HERE ANYMORE TO FORCE HER TO BE "CARING" ABOUT ME ANYMORE. like when she used to make my mom stay home from the bar when i used to go to her house on the weekend so i could SEE MY GRANDMA when she was alive. what a relief for the devil mom! her mom isn't alive to FORCE her to "care" about her disabled daughter anymore! FIESTA! don't even consider coming to me for ANYTHING *EVER*. that goes for amy also, who i'm sure stalks the hell outta me in crazy hopes of somehow turning into her kewliez older sister!! you should be concentrating on getting your damn ged, so you don't take after mommy and depend on welfare and ssi because there's a good chance that there isn't even gonna be any ssi pretty soon after grump's fat ass gets done spending all the funds (since i have a weird suspicion that his fat ass is taking away from social security and stuffing his pockets with the money). MOM- YOU CAN THANK YOUR SMART ASS NIECE AND HER HUSBAND FOR ELECTING THE MAN WHO IS GONNA KILL YOU BECAUSE HE'S GONNA TAKE ALL YOUR BENEFITS AND MONEY AWAY JUST FOR HIMSELF. IF THAT ISN'T "CARE".. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS! VOTING FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T HELP YOUR RELATIVES LIVE HAPPY, HEALTHY LIVES! SUCH A SWEET NIECE! DOES THAT MAKE YOU LOOK "GOOD" TO OTHER PEOPLE?! (SINCE THAT'S ALL YOU APPARENTLY CARE ABOUT.) have fun paying for your selfish, fat fuck of a president's crimes!